Spring

Last week, I did one of those hidden word memes where the first three words you see are supposed to be for whatever. My first three words were connection, power, purpose. In that order.

It’s interesting how the universe is able to put into very specific words the feelings I’ve been experiencing. And just when I needed to read them. I’ve been searching, but had not really given exact words to it. I’ve been restless, but not knowing exactly for what; I have strong ideas of what, but was just not articulating it well. And then I read those words. They completely sum up how I’ve been feeling and the work I need to do.

Spiritually, I have been drifting for a quite some time. Since 2020, I have been pulled to reconnect with my spiritual side and my Practice. I started rebuilding my library of books on the Craft. Acquiring new copies of many books, and discovering new authors to add to my collection.

The fact that connection, power, and purpose are the three words I saw confirms to me that my decision to step back into an active role in the Pagan community is my path. It will not be an easy path, but I’ve never been known for choosing the easy way.

As I’m working to fully embrace my own magic power and purpose, I’ve accepted that I need to continue to heal too. Heal from my own trauma and the generational family trauma I carry. It’s time to make peace with those things, lay them down and set them free.

I’m bought a copy of Heal the Witch Wound by Celeste Larsen a couple of months ago. If I’m being honest, it took me those couple of months to read it not because I was deep in other reading material, but rather good old procrastination. It’s a heavy subject. But I started reading it over the weekend and so much of it rings true. Yes, it is heavy, but that heaviness has been part of my soul for a long time. Reading it not only validates that part of myself I don’t discuss for fear of being thought crazy, but it has made it easier to carry. It’s part of healing and growing.

I’ve journaled a lot about these words. About the process of healing. About embracing my Witch identity. In New Orleans, I was very open and public in my practice. I relocated to New England about 15 years ago and have been pretty private. I lived in Salem, MA for several years and was still private! Of all places!

But, I was also going through a ton of things; divorce, a miserable job, literally running away from my feelings and problems training for a marathon. I was not in a right mindset to practice. After hitting rock bottom pretty much, I began to climb my way out of that dark time. I worked on myself a lot. Not spiritually per se, but I focused on changing my career, building my skills and overhauling my life into someone I loved again.

The spiritual growth came later. It’s happened in fits and starts over the years, but it’s a key focus going forward. It has to be if I’m going to embrace my Connection, Power, Purpose.

This new moon feels more of a new year to me than the beginning of the calendar year. I think March has always been the “new year” for me rather than January first.

I’ve always felt the need to hibernate during the winter months. For years I always beat myself up for being lazy and unmotivated. I used to joke that I was part bear for wanting to hibernate. It has taken many trips around the sun to realize that I’m not either of those things. In fact, I am very in tune with Mother Earth.

During the winter months, the land is barren and asleep. Our crops have been harvested and it is time to give the land rest. We are meant to do the same during the dark, cold winter months. We were not meant to go-go-go all year long. We need those dark months to turn inward. That is the time to focus on yourself. Your spirit. Your connection to the Divine. It’s a time to rest and reset.

March has finally arrived though and our days are getting longer. Mother Earth is starting to wake up from her winter slumber. My crocuses have started to bloom! My tulips and daffodils have peaked up a few inches in their beds. My own energy is returning. I too, am waking up.

I’ve been spring cleaning like crazy. Out the with old! It’s time to make room for the new! It’s time to purge that which no longer serves me, and purging I have been doing. The “Stuff” that has accumulated over the years has gotten a bit out of hand. I’ve been donating and tossing things to make room in my home. This purging has made a lot of room for a lot of fresh, new energy inside these old walls.

New broom I made above my ancestral altar.

This new moon is a time to set intentions for the coming seasons. I have been a solitary Witch for the last 15 years or so. When I lived in New Orleans, I practiced regularly with a very tight knit group. That group is where I trained and learned my Craft. After relocating, I never connected with any group. I’m not sure why exactly, but I took a long break and just practiced alone. In the last few years though, I have felt the pull to step back into the Pagan Community as an active participant. But I never actually did it. I kept thinking, but not doing. Well, it’s time to do!

I have not found a specific group yet. But over the last few months, that pull has become much more insistent. Demanding! It’s literally a scream in my head insisting that I use my voice. That I once again become an active member of the Pagan community. It’s time to embrace my magic, meet other like minded souls where I live now.

I have started looking for those beautiful souls. Our world is a mess. The Witches need to come together, band together to be a force for good. I would love to build a community of Witches (and Witch friendly) to practice with, but also a community that strives for a peaceful harmony with the earth. We don’t all have to believe the same thing from a religious or spiritual perspective; I believe it’s more important that we all come together with an openness to believe all of our paths are valid. Can such a group exist? In a world with so much discord, honestly, I’m not sure. But I’d like to try.

Is that a tall order for this year, or what?! I have smaller intentions too. I am continuing to do a massive spring cleaning. I am making my plans for the garden too. My husband found a set of plans to build a larger tiered herb garden. I want to grow and dry our extra herbs this summer. I have several herbs that I want to grow for teas. We live in an urban setting, so we have container garden beds.

A part of that intention setting is to write more too. In my journal and here. I’ll be writing a lot on this journey to finding my voice, my new tribe, and my place in all of it. I don’t know where this is going to lead me, but I trust The Goddess to show me the path.

Goddess Musings

Witch. Photographer. Writer. Runner. Dreamer.

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